Love

I can so envision one day

Having you there

with me.

Love this!

Love you.

Reflections...

I catch myself sometimes

in quiet reflection

thinking of you,

missing you,

wondering

what if?...

what might have been?

And then it hits me

so clear and true

that the best gift I have

right now

is the gift

of knowing YOU

NOW.

How very fortunate,

how very blessed

I truly am

to have your love,

your friendship,

your care and concern.

How very happy

I am to KNOW,

(*yes KNOW)

that you are in this world

and in the here and now

and that I am too!

Just how lucky, how AWESOME

is that?

We both have survived

a crazy world

and somehow found

one another again

in THIS very

LIFETIME!!!!!

It amazes me

it captivates my imagination,

my sense of awe--

to know, to beileve

to rejoice

that our angels, our spirit guides

endeavored and worked so hard

to help us find

paths that would eventually lead

us to one another

once again.

Every thing that happens

is for a REASON.

I have always

and will always

believe that to be

TRUE.

You and I are a reason

to BE.

Just sayin'

I love you

and you

love me

and

LIFE

is

DAMN GOOD!!!!

(*thanks angels and Spirit Guides).

{I love my Blue Eyes

and he loves me too}--

Bottom line?

WE ARE BLESSED BEYOND BELIEF...

YEP--LIFE IS GOOD!!!

(THANK YOU DEAR UNIVERSE!)

Why Aren't You Here?

I keep thinking

I wish you could be here

Just to hold me close

to share these

awesomely beautiful

sunsets

with me.

Most days

I wouldn't mind

letting the sunrises appear

without an audience

of us two--

but every great once and awhile

I would LOVE

sharing the Sunrise

with you too.

Wait.

I think

I just wish

I could share it ALL

with you.

Perhaps one day

it will all

come to pass?

We can always

HOPE.

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Day's End...

But sometimes I don't want the day to end.
Even when I am beyond tired.
There just seems to be so much
I still want to do,
that I still want to say...


Sometimes I wish, I wish, I wish
I could make the day go forever
just so I could do 
all the many, many things
that I want to do.


I wanted to draw today--
but then, I wanted to write too--
but I needed to work
needed to get so many things done
that I know I should do...
the wants had to wait
and now
my time is done.
Damn.
Oh well...
tomorrow 
is another day.
But
What am I going to do
when all of my days end?
I mean--
what will happen
to all these things
I so very much want to do--
when I am no longer here?
Will they just become phantom
thoughts
of what might have been?


I don't want the day to end.
Not yet.
I was just getting ready
for it to begin.


Damn.
#

Saturday Night Sunset/Bidding Adieu

I know that the time has come

that you have to return

to your real world

which doesn't include me

but still

I know too

that those moments shared

spending time with you

were akin

to a gentle and much needed rain

on this parched soul of mine

thank you, my love,

for taking the time.

I hope you will always know

to your deepest core

that this love we share

will last forevermore.

Old and Past Her Prime...

Though old 
and past her prime,
the sunflower still
has a beauty that prevails--
she still stands tall
and looks to 
the younger version
of herself 
and seems to say,
"Yes, enjoy it all now--
for in due time
you too will be old
and well past your Prime."
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I Guess That Means "ME"....Hmmmm.......

I know, I know, I know.  So why can I not be happy?  Why do I not choose to be happy????  Well, things are gonna change.  I am the only one on this great earth of ours who can make or break me.  


Eventually I am going to have to come to the realization that it is indeed ALL up to ME.  I have control over NOTHING, NOT ONE DAMN THING other than MY VERY OWN THOUGHTS.


So what is my plan?  
To Get a Grip.
How?
To remember, to reflect, to open my eyes and see
just how very BLESSED I truly am.


And oh my god, I am blessed.  I have beautiful souls traveling this journey with me who love me just as much as I love them--who are here to listen, to care, to share. (Thank you, dear ones so much!)


I have my home that I adore and one day will have fixed up just like I need and want it to be.


I have OPPORTUNITY.  The opportunity to take better care of me.  Not ONE, but TWO gym memberships and the blessing of living very close to one and fairly close to another.  So, it's time to take full advantage of this blessing and make it work to my advantage.  


I have my life.  Though it is not exactly as I want it to be for now--by golly, it is still my life and I can spend each moment of every day trying to improve it and make it to be just what I need and want it to be.


So--here I go...