Day's End...

But sometimes I don't want the day to end.
Even when I am beyond tired.
There just seems to be so much
I still want to do,
that I still want to say...


Sometimes I wish, I wish, I wish
I could make the day go forever
just so I could do 
all the many, many things
that I want to do.


I wanted to draw today--
but then, I wanted to write too--
but I needed to work
needed to get so many things done
that I know I should do...
the wants had to wait
and now
my time is done.
Damn.
Oh well...
tomorrow 
is another day.
But
What am I going to do
when all of my days end?
I mean--
what will happen
to all these things
I so very much want to do--
when I am no longer here?
Will they just become phantom
thoughts
of what might have been?


I don't want the day to end.
Not yet.
I was just getting ready
for it to begin.


Damn.
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Saturday Night Sunset/Bidding Adieu

I know that the time has come

that you have to return

to your real world

which doesn't include me

but still

I know too

that those moments shared

spending time with you

were akin

to a gentle and much needed rain

on this parched soul of mine

thank you, my love,

for taking the time.

I hope you will always know

to your deepest core

that this love we share

will last forevermore.

Old and Past Her Prime...

Though old 
and past her prime,
the sunflower still
has a beauty that prevails--
she still stands tall
and looks to 
the younger version
of herself 
and seems to say,
"Yes, enjoy it all now--
for in due time
you too will be old
and well past your Prime."
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I Guess That Means "ME"....Hmmmm.......

I know, I know, I know.  So why can I not be happy?  Why do I not choose to be happy????  Well, things are gonna change.  I am the only one on this great earth of ours who can make or break me.  


Eventually I am going to have to come to the realization that it is indeed ALL up to ME.  I have control over NOTHING, NOT ONE DAMN THING other than MY VERY OWN THOUGHTS.


So what is my plan?  
To Get a Grip.
How?
To remember, to reflect, to open my eyes and see
just how very BLESSED I truly am.


And oh my god, I am blessed.  I have beautiful souls traveling this journey with me who love me just as much as I love them--who are here to listen, to care, to share. (Thank you, dear ones so much!)


I have my home that I adore and one day will have fixed up just like I need and want it to be.


I have OPPORTUNITY.  The opportunity to take better care of me.  Not ONE, but TWO gym memberships and the blessing of living very close to one and fairly close to another.  So, it's time to take full advantage of this blessing and make it work to my advantage.  


I have my life.  Though it is not exactly as I want it to be for now--by golly, it is still my life and I can spend each moment of every day trying to improve it and make it to be just what I need and want it to be.


So--here I go...